It was 9:54 last evening when the phone rang. I saw the unrecognizable name on the
caller ID and chose to ignore it disturbed by the fact that someone unknown was
calling so late. Seconds later my
cell phone rang. That familiar
feeling of panic set in. I knew it
wasn’t good.
“Kristy, it’s Becky from Camp Needlepoint,” she said in a
hurried voice. Immediately, I
chill ran through me from head to toe.
Before she could say another word, I began to tear. “Yes,” I said quietly fearing the
worst. “He’s okay, but we’re at
the ER. I’m here with the head
Endocrinologist that’s staying with us this week. We need you to talk to admitting so he can be seen.”
“What’s wrong,” I whimper. “He’s got a really bad stomach ache. He blood sugar is in range, so we’re
hoping it’s nothing serious.”
She handed the phone to the woman who had to speak with me
about admitting Eli. She had to
ensure that I would allow my son to be treated. After the formalities, she indicated that the
Endocrinologist would call me as soon as they got word.
After I hung up the phone, pain ran through my veins. Paralyzed with fear, the same fear and
panic that struck me when he was first diagnosed with Type 1. At that time, I was stranded on an airplane in
Atlanta – not there with him. This
time, he was in Wisconsin and I at home – again not being there. Not being there for him when he needed
me most. Needing his Mom.
Less than 15 minutes later, the Endo called and mentioned
that Eli was being checked by the ER Doctor. He brought Eli to the ER as his symptoms were not normal. Eli was holding the side of his abdomen
in severe pain. He just didn’t
seem like the kind of kid that would complain. He wanted to ensure it wasn’t appendicitis. He would call back when he knew more.
Waiting.
Fearing. Sobbing for my
son. It was unbearable. Not being there.
An hour later, the call of relief came. No serious issues, just a very bad
tummy ache. They gave him some meds and took him back to
camp. In true Eli style, he demanded to spend the night with his friends in the cabin –
not the medical cabin.
So my littlest angel is better today. A blessing. A miracle.
But, my fear of not being there for him burns in my
soul. I’m not sure how to recover.
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